So after asking questions to my cousins who knew my biological father well, I found a hospital that he was in at one time. So, I called them and they sent over the paperwork I need to return to get all his medical records. I should be happy right? I mean, that’s what I wanted. But now I just keep feeling like maybe he wouldn’t want me to know. Or maybe he would.

Something else my cousin said to me was that she “doesn’t remember a time when he wasn’t smiling.”  I don’t know if I should be content with that or not. I’m really torn. It’s not like I can ask anyone else in the family about this. They don’t really want to talk about it. I’m on my own with this. I just hope I can decide what is best.

With the help and advise from you all out there, I’m gonna ponder on this for a while. I’ll let you know how it turns out.

As always, thanks for all your support.

Juliet